Tuesday, January 19, 2010


I have been bad with blogging again. It's not that I don't have tons of thoughts running through my mind the truth is I have way too many. Way to many thought to begin pin pointing. Way too many thoughts running through my mind to even make sense of them. You see February is coming up....where this month once just brought my birthday it now brings my daughter's birthday, and the anniversary of her death. Believe it or not I'm doing well...or the best you can be doing in a time like this. You learn how to face the days again, but the thought of big days bring about the same sadness. Currently my thoughts are filled with memories of my last moments with her in my tummy. The memories of us learning each other as I began to feel her move around more. Memories of being excited that we would soon find out what we were having and beginning to look forward to shopping and a baby shower the spring would bring. These days were never meant to be.

But you see as I live through these sad days that make my heart heavy I also have so much to look forward to. 2010 has me hopeful...I feel like this is our year. I know at some point this year we will bring home our forever baby. I have faith in us and in God that it will happen. We have put up with way too many storms and it's our turn for happiness.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

101 in 1001

The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past – frequently simple goals such as new year’s resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

* Start Date: Wednesday, January 13, 2010
* End Date: Wednesday, October 10, 2012

My list...

1.Get Pregnant
2.Go to church at least twice a month.
3.Take an online course
4.Find a job Completed 5/10/10
5.Learn to knit
6.Take and Finish a cake decorating class
7.Stick to laundry schedule
8.Start scrapbooking for the kids
9.Take a cooking class
10.See the Nutcracker
11.Buy a house
12.Try a new recipe once a week.
13.Take up yoga
14.Take the kids to Big Bear to see the snow
15.Go wine tasting with the girls
16.Knit a baby blanket
17.Deliver a healthy baby
18.Read Gone with the Wind
19.Take a Salsa dancing class with the hubby
20.Start and finish a cross stitch project
21.Take a family vacation just the 4...hopefully 5 of us.
22.not log onto the computer for an entire day.
23.Go a week without gossip magazines and websites.
24.Come up with my own cupcake recipe.
25.Plan family nights once a week before the kids are too old for it.
26.Make it home for the holidays
27.Make a homemade pie for Thanksgiving.
28.Make a cheesecake.
29.Use the wii daily.
30.Decorate our house.
31.Make a baby name sign for our baby.
32.Mail out a birth announcement to our fertility Dr!
33.Clean out the clutter in our kitchen.
34.Buy new appliances once we get rid of the old ones.
35.Actually use our mountain bikes!
36.Visit my friend in North Carolina.
37.Go to a concert kid free!
38.Date night with hubby once a month.
39.Take more pictures.
40.Be more creative with my baking.
41.Spend a Sunday cuddled on the couch with the kids in pj's watching movies and vegging out.
42.Participate in a March for Dimes walk.
43.Go to a horse race in Del Mar.
44.Buy a piece of jewelry at Tiffany's in Beverly Hills.
45.Go to the midnight showing of Eclipse on the night it opens.
46.Buy something from Etsy
47.Knit us Christmas stockings.
48.Buy the kids Christmas ornaments.
49.Take new family pictures.
50.Host a Christmas party.
51.Plan a better Cookie Exchange.
52.Host a cupcake and wine party!
53.Read and participate in the Love Dare.
54.Make a painted pottery "Birthday" platter for everyone to use on their birthday.
55.Go a whole day with no yelling.
56.Put more effort into my blog.
57.Read at least 2 books a month.
58.Learn to make Sushi.
59.Learn to make homemade icing. Completed 2/5/2010
60.Buy and use reusable shopping bags when grocery shopping.
61.Drink 8 glasses of water daily for 3 weeks.
62.Make a birthday list.
63.Send out cards monthly for everyone on the birthday list.
64.Get involved with our local March of Dimes chapter.
65.Host a dinner party.
66.Keep wine stocked in the house.
67.Have a happy 6 month birthday for our baby.
68.Celebrate our baby's 1st birthday.
69.Take my vitamins everyday for a month.
70.Get a dog.
71.Learn Spanish.
72.Go to the beach at least twice a month during the summer months.
73.Buy a plant and not kill it.
74.Buy a new camera.
75.Have a picnic in the park. Picnic basket and all!
76.Actually try the recipes that I have cut out. If not used throw them out!
77.Learn to decorate sugar cookies with royal icing.
78.Learn to use fondant.
79.Learn to bake bread.
80.Buy a water pitcher so we can use less water bottles while home.
81.Sort through the kids rooms and donate stuff to Good Will.
82.Donate a toy to toys for tots.
83.Learn to make a yummy from scratch mac and cheese.
84.Enjoy the kids sports without talking on the phone or gossiping with the other moms.
85.Spend a day in the spa.
86.Get into the routine of making Sunday Dinners.
87.Get to know our neighbors.
88.Learn how to take a decent picture.
89.Take one picture daily for a month.
90.Read at least an hour a day for a week.
91.Clean the kitchen right after dinner everyday for a week.
92.Eat breakfast everyday for a month.
93.Read the bible cover to cover.
94.Enroll the kids in classes at the church.
95.Get more involved in the church.
96.Find a spot in our house for Bryanna's urn to sit.
97.Learn to sew.
98.Use the crock pot everyday for a week.
99.Go on a tour of the stars homes in LA.
100.Learn to bake my own Lemon Loaf...just like Starbucks!
101.Donate $1 for every task completed to March of Dimes in Bryanna's name.